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The Referee In My Head

© 2013 Scott Strange, Strangely Diabetic and

A few months ago I wrote about trying mindfulness, especially when dealing with emotional situations.  It’s helping I think and I find myself applying it to things that aren’t considered “emotions”.

Such as confusion.  Right now, I’m managing a FDA Software Validation project. We are going through all the SOP’s and test cases developed to use and test the system.  We test it to make sure that when we enter data, we can retrieve it again. That properly stored it and that audit trails are properly configured to track changes to that data.

It’s very detailed and, sometimes, tedious work.  One part of this process is to find shortcomings in the system and related SOP’s.  This is a critical piece because if we don’t find them and establish some type of control, either procedural or technical, for shortcomings, the FDA will find them and possibly write us up. That’s considered very bad.

We found one of those yesterday and as we were working through it, I was suddenly faced with several simultaneous questions – all important, all needing answers.

I became confused, unable to focus on a single question and get it answered. So I did what I always do.  My brain went silent, log jammed on what to do.  I became frustrated with my inability to get these things done, which just made things worse.

Suddenly, the little piece of my brain that has regulated my mindfulness said “Yo, it’s ok being confused. Tony Stark would be confused now. Well…  maybe not Tony Stark, he’d probably hire some minions to be confused for him and other minions to solve the problem.”

What I could then see was that the confusion was not the problem. The problem was too many questions at once.   So I said “Stop.” Literally, just that word.  It worked wonders, everyone seemed to see what was happening and we worked one question at a time.

Confusion arises from thinking, where as emotion arises from feeling.  While intertwined, thinking and feeling are not the same thing.

That little referee in my head broke up the dog-pile of thoughts in my head and got the game started again, showing that while different, thinking and feeling are more intertwined than we believe.

And that some of the same coping strategies may used in both areas.

Today’s snarky comment: insecurity arises from comparing oneself to everyone else’s highlight reel  ~ some Facebook meme

 © 2013 Scott Strange, Strangely Diabetic and

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