I’ve really been struggling with how to write this post about my last meetup with Morpheus. I’m finding it hard to figure out how to say things without sounding arrogant (who me?) or condescending to you all.
Giving myself a compliment started the whole thing. It’s been a long time since I’ve really done that, usually I’m indulging in self-debasing humor. Making fun of myself.
Morpheus has been reading my blog and comments from everyone and she thought that my replies had always been very compassionate even protective. Why could I be that way with so many others, but not myself?
Well, the answer came to mind almost immediately, but it took me a few seconds to actually decide to say it. (** I felt sad when I said it, not sure why) Once I did, I literally went “did I just compliment myself?”. It was how I phrased it that makes me hesitant to share it here. So let me try to put it in perspective…
A few years ago, my son was suspended from school for a day for getting in a fight. It was just a playground scrap and I was actually glad to see him standing up for himself. After the obligatory “You shouldn’t get into fights” talk, he asked me if it was ever ok to fight. I told him it was sometimes, especially when protecting those not as strong as you.
This is where it sounds bad, but I answered that the compassion came because I was supposed to protect those who weren’t as strong as I. That may sound condescending, I know, but I really didn’t mean it like that.
I believe that you are all stronger than you realize.
Sometimes we all go through things where we are just not as strong as those around us.
I have been weak so many times and this thing we call the DOC has shouldered part of my load. Helped hold me steady in the moments that were the hardest to bear. All of us will have moments when we need the strength of someone else to carry us through.
If you reach out to me, to the whole DOC in a comment on my blog, I will always do my best to support you.
There will be a day when your strength will help someone else. And it will strengthen that person who will then be stronger for one of theirs.
That is community.
That is the DOC.
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