My last post was a very brief one about “Regrets” being an upcoming topic with Morpheus and how that scared me.
I thought I’d try to explain why. **By the way, writing this is making me very anxious which probably means I need to talk about it
I’ve mentioned before that I never really allowed my self to form distinct memories of significant events in my life, I mean seriously, why bother? However, I’m beginning to think it is more likely that those memories are there; lurking, hidden, just waiting to cut into me.
I think I will be ashamed of the way I treated friends and loved ones, of how I wouldn’t let myself enjoy the moment. Angry with myself for that.
And I worry that I won’t be able to control these feelings and emotions as these memories surface. I have no idea how or when they will and my reaction is completely unpredictable to me.
That is very scary to me.
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