** Before I get started, I wanted to share an anecdote with you about something that happened on the way home from my session with Morpheus that I described in Oh Bother… I left the appointment in something of a daze and and stopped to get a Diet Coke (of course) for my 45 minute drive home. I managed to get my head on somewhat straight and as I started the drive home, Welcome To My Nightmare by Alice Cooper came up on my playlist. I smirked at that as it was ironically timely. However, I seriously began to wonder when I pulled into the parking lot for my next appointment and that same song started playing again… I think it has become my unofficial theme song for this whole mess!
You know, I’m finding some of the things about therapy kind of odd. As I am trying to change how I perceive myself in relation to the world, it often seems that there are two of me in here competing for space in the old brain pan. The Bother Brothers (Will and Why) seem to be butting heads.. Get it? Butting heads? In my head? I made a funny!
One advantage that Why has is that is where my “gonna call it like I see it and eff the torpedoes” attitude comes from. Why has such little regard for what people think of him… err me, that he will pretty much say what I am feeling about a situation; regardless of who may get pissed off at my humble, yet always correct, opinions. Morpheus tells me that is what gives me a strong patient voice and I don’t want to lose that ability. The trick is learning how to use it as a tool as opposed to a lifestyle.
Doing that is going to require Will to step up to the plate a little more often and I need patience as my mind sorts out this sibling rivalry. One of the things we discussed last time, is that I need to be a little easier on myself as this change occurs. I’ve been bunking with Why for 4 decades, so adding Will as a second roommate will take some getting used to. I sometimes give advice to others that that begins with “Take a breath”, I need to start following that advice.
Patience with myself… I’m not sure I have the patience to wait for that to happen.
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