I’ve thought for a long time that every diabetes diagnosis & treatment regimen should include counseling right along with the medications and the medical professionals that will come and go during our lifetime with diabetes. In fact, that should be the case for any chronic or life-altering health situation.
I’m doing that now and I’ve put myself out here as someone who is clinically depressed and diabetic. Granted these postings mostly help me, but I also hope that my discussions can help people know it’s OK. It’s OK to seek help when you or a loved one has diabetes or any other chronic condition for that matter. Non-health related life-changing events can also use some help sorting out now and again. That’s OK.
Because, dammit, life is hard enough and diabetes is another layer of stress, anxiety, fear, anger, frustration all rolled up in a little thing we call our lives.
I’ve always felt as a diabetes advocate I have a responsibility to tell it like it is and to show that you don’t need to be a “perfect” patient to have a long, fulfilling life. Depression has always sapped that “fulfilling” portion of my life and that is what I want to change now.
Putting it all out here about mental health is uncomfortable, not merely because I am searching for and looking at things that I spent 4 decades hiding from. And it’s not merely because I am discussing some things that are very personal & private to me in a very open space. It’s not because there is such a stigma associated with mental health.
Without really intending to, I seem to have moved into a mental health advocacy role as well. And that’s truly uncomfortable because someone, someone I may influence, found my blog using the search phrase:
decided to let diabetes kill me
That’s not OK with me. I wish I had a way to reach out through that search phrase and find that person. Try to tell them they are not alone, that what they are feeling is normal, and hopefully help them find what they need. If you are reading this now, please talk with someone, anyone, even me. Because it is OK.
I had kind of liked how I was writing about all this, it was helping me put some order to the jumble of thoughts and emotions that are part of this journey. That search phrase is making me question my approach though. I guess Morpheus and I will have a topic of discussion next time.
And that’s OK too.
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