It’s tough sometimes. Friends help, but sometimes things are tough because you are really the one that has to carry the ball.
For me, since I really never had a support network until very recently, not only am I uncomfortable asking for help, I honestly forget to. Or maybe I still don’t know how.
When I’m overwhelmed, I tend to pull back from others. Once I’ve pulled back far enough it’s hard to re-engage with life sometimes; just making it easier to pull back even more and tougher to live a life that’s not isolated.
It’s all day everyday, there is no downtime from what is requiring my attention right now. That makes it hard to recharge. It’s just tough.
Can I really spare the energy to focus on other things or can they wait a while? What are the consequences of that? Tough questions.
I guess it boils down to the fact that I want to do this so I’ll just have to get tougher.
Maybe I’ll write next about how tough plain old life and work in general is or even how tough diabetes is but we already know about all that…
PS: Yes this is my Dblog Day entry, because living successfully with diabetes has a lot more to do with living than it does diabetes